Just needed to talk

Things have been very different for the last few weeks in my life..things are changing, I'm doing more, a real job, scary, and lots of other things. I don't know, I've just been very used to and comfortable in my life for the past three or four years, and now it seems like everything is changing or has changed. I'm not quite sure I like it either. I mean, I like my job and I know music is what I want to do, but my maturation and new life is just making other things impossible or putting stress on them or, I'm not really sure. Relationships with friends and others have changed, and not always for the best. Things aren't terrible by any means, and maybe that's why I feel so guilty complaining about them right now, but they're just not the way I want them to be. I get the feeling sometimes that I'm being left out of things or not completely let in, and that is not a good feeling if you've never experienced it. I feel like I have my world, and then, there's this whole other thing going on that I'm not a part of that I used to be. Yeah, there are certain things that I'm talking about more than others, but I don't mean this to be incriminating, just expression. I don't know...I just don't really know